Somehow it gets annoying to be alone most of the time. I tend to get caught up with what I see and wham! You lose in touch with your inner self, your purpose of being in this magical place. Families, couples, groupies… I get lost when I watch them too much. And I woke up today feeling way off-centred.
I meet interesting people everyday. From visitsors like myself to people who live here. And we have fantastic conversations. Never fleeting talks but sincerely engaging in learning conversations.
And what I’ve learned?? However the stories are something new, mind-blowing, or even something remembered… It is not about gaining more knowledge of everything. There is the simple truth of unlearning some things to be able to absorb what’s right in front of me.
I’m reading a book, Buddhist Boot Camp shared by a very beautiful person. I’m on my third reading since it was handed to me two weeks ago. There’s a chapter that really spoke high waves of what I feel now…
The Dad’s author said – You are not really learning something new. You’re trying to be two years old again, aren’t you?
A child would never be this uptight about being here, even when alone. The curiosity will explode a million times over to simply take this all in. There won’t be the envy or jealousy of seeing others in their happy moments; the child will simply walk up to them and join in. The child will not feel abandoned jumping up alone from the waves at the shore; others will come along, perhaps no talks needed but simply the giggles and loud shrieks from playing.
And when we allow ourselves to come back to our child within??
In there I find my centre.
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Interestingly though, as I was shown to my seat for dinner (Bella Cucina, an Italian restaurant at the resort is a must for anyone visiting here), their head receptionist asked me a load of questions, mainly why I am here by myself. Of course they ask why, right? And as we talked, she said – We all need somebody special in our lives, here or afar, there has to be someone in your heart… … … my heart whispered… Someone as beautiful who shared me the book. =)